Que Coño ha Pasado?

I went on vacation for a week and when I came back my blog is in German?
WTF happened here?!?
I would have understood it if it were in Spanish but noooo...it has to be Deutche?
Sohn eines Weibchens!!!!

Excepts from the short lived vacaciones:

The beach had lots of biatches and it was equally awesome...I am burned as hell...can't wait till I see what I have filmed! A friend named Ana flew in from Madrid to see the targets (Male Emaratis) up close, apparently her appetite switched from "hombres españoles calientes" to "hombres árabes calientes " even though I have warned her that they aren't as hot as they look in the sheets, she didn't mind. She did not want just any Arab man; it has to be Emaratis wearing kandura (intrigued by what's underneath it all) Fine! I don't get it but whatever!
So we went to Al Ain where all the beautiful and perfect Emarati gentlemen were and boy did she almost piss in her pants! I guess she didn't have fun as much as she should have had because some part of my brain have blocked all the menkind and I have completely lost interest in them so at some point I had a hard time relating to a female desire just by lookin at men. We head back to Dubai later that day and I had to come up with some excuse to go to the gym so I can see the one who takes my sunshine away! There she was...piercing blue eyes and bone melting smile!

Next night we had coffee at Japenggo in Dubai Marine area...it was beautiful...we were being so random that we wound up with this conversation:

Ana: Will you marry me?
Jess: Really?
Ana: Yea! so you can be an EU national and move to Madrid with me!
Jess: LOL! yea let's get married!

And then we started laughing, there were 2 local boys behind us and they didn't know how to react and they cannot believe if they were really hearing what they were hearing.
We left the scene still crackin up and she kept on playing with people's mind. While we were walkin she held me and said "Where do you wanna go baby I'll take you there!" and I just kept laughing! It was too funny cuz I know that she is so straight. Oh and I forgot the part when there was this pretty lady that kept on looking at me that it made me feel uncomfortable and almost wanted to ask for her name if she weren't with her sisters (I figured because they all look alike; all 3 of them). After she ate a whole plate of I dunno what the hell it was, she stood up took one more look at me (I hope it was really me she was looking at) and then left! Soon after she left the butterflies visited my stomach and decided that they want to fly around again!

Ana left on Tuesday night and the fun is over. I'm kinda sad now that my future spouse is back in Madrid! Lol!

p.s. Mona you're fuckin breakin my heart everyday and you don't even know it!

Vague

In a world where everyone is delusional
Where everyone is confused and in denial
One cannot draw the conclusion between what is real and what is a make believe

I sat in a corner as I watch the world come tumbling down
I see how surreal the reality appears to be
Nothing is real and all its meaning of every purpose is vaguely represented by a superficial desire to outwit the original character

The ugliest of form is coated by an element from which the substance is brutally eliminated and stripped off of its core
As one evolves leaving nothing but a shadow of what used to be pure
Every inch of its being is corrupted by a force bigger than that of a monstrous image that won’t fade

Like a child I hide from the dream that had manifested into a nightmare that haunts me in my sleep
I searched for familiar faces as I step closer to the ground of a foreign territory
I found nothing but a feeling of eternal longing for a salvation to lift me off of an infinite void

And like a pair of paralyzed limb I felt so numb and helpless to save me from an unforgiving fate the brought me into the brink of insanity
All that I know I am left my once defined consciousness
An endless inquisition takes me to a boundless uncertainty

It seems like the search for my once affirmative identity and a battle to fight against the unknown from which I have already claimed victory for is once again set to begin
I no longer see black or white
Both have been diluted to a frightening shade of grey
Nothing is ever what it seems

Beneath the Surface

I have always known...all the signs I've seen... I have always ignored..I have lived a lie...I tried to hide...I almost died...I tried to face it...I almost lost it...


...tbc...